for the first time, i treasured many patterns in ikea indo

lots of patterns

shine a light!

pattern on things

spotlight

standing bed

my new big sis

sit wherever

list to-do

current to-do list ASAP:
- finalize watch himym last season
- find the fix design outfit(s) for big bro's day
- make a skirt from batik for this 20th April event
- browse about the people who'll be ruled this Indonesia for the next 4 years (i hope i don't mistake this by forgetting it)
- find that red-purple plastic hairpin that I bought in matahari panakkukang or manado (sorry for my brain)
- match the artwork album for itunes
- sorted the reunion childhood photo trip
- create photo timeline
- updated the phone system (if it's available)
- facial
- make a mandiri token

currently dOOne list:
- create top (it's simple and fast and fit to my body)
- meet up and reunite with childhood friends (minus 1)
- meet up elita (soon she'll be in another country,, too bad no jojo and sopa)
- finish my reading 'tea for two'
- visit mba tami to discuss my design outfit for big bro's day
- visit dhini's flat at kalibata city

a little reunion trip to pramuka islands and its friends

3a.m -- packing

wake up. it's packing packing time. then shower time. thanks god my fever has gone away.

5a.m -- pick up

time to pick up. first stop is a place to shop anything in short time (read minimart). after i buy enough supplies for us to survive on the boat, we're ready to go to muara angke.

6.15a.m -- on the way

oh no, we're stuck. we decide to get out of car and continue by foot. luckily, muara angke is near. start to smell something fishy fishy. the stink smell only appear at first (fiuuuhh,, can't imagine how my morning nose fells like). then, we continue by taking hmmmm what's called, a motorcycle with enough 8 seats on back + 2 seats at front + 1 seat for the driver. it costs 5k per person. we arrive at the place where many people in groups carrying bags. let's called them local tourist who wants to get holiday away from the city. dhani is our connector in this trip, wherever we go, we follow him. the boat we took almost full. i dunno where should we sit. luckily, i bring 2pcs newspaper and several plastic bags that can be used to avoid our dirty pants while seating.

7.30a.m -- the journey

the boat is moving, yaiyyy. i see dolphins :o

our spot on the boat

10.25a.m -- arrive

here we cooome

wait for the guy to meet us and lead us to our sleep place. arrive at the guesthouse. welcoming with hot sweet tea and 'gorengan'. enough with 'leyeh-leyeh' moment then we change our outfit with ready to wet it.

11.30a.m -- lunch

our lunch (and breakfast) menu. squid fried with flour. mini shrimp with spicy taste :((. many kinds vegetables. watermeloooon.

12.20p.m -- on the boat again

after we pick our fin size, google, life-jacket, we're on the boat again. first we are taken to look around the sea, sky, and islands. in outside means i can blow bubbles.

01.45p.m -- meet 'elang bondol'

stop on an island where 'elang bondol' are being healed. this creature is endangered species, for some people who doesn't understand they keep it as a pet. some of them was being injured on the wings so they can't flew away. the owner makes them like in prison. while we look around, we got caught by the local authorities that said we're come without permission letter.

reminds me of maple tree (another random click click)

2.15p.m -- snorkeling

it's my first time. kind of forget how to swim, how to breathe on the water. it turns out breathing under water is really hard and heavy. plus the googles is not friendly to me. the glass view is not as clear as my everyday view. plusss my foot always cramps, can't swim freely :(duh): so i become a remora (remember some episode on the crazy ones), have to attache to something or in this case i have to attached to one of my friends (sorry pals)

3.30p.m -- laaaand :)

got a chance to get in touch with sea urchin or we called it 'bulu babi'

16.30p.m

back on the boat again. now with young coconuts.

17.25p.m

a little snorkle to visit a little sand island. long enough for me to remember what that thing called. it's like a little island that i visited at alor,ntt. among the sea, there's a little sand popping. laguna (i think that's what it called). but my big bro called it delta. i dunno which one is the right.

17.55p.m

another hop on island. now it's time to enjoy the young coconut without straw and spoon. too bad, only hop a few minutes, then back to the sea. me continue enjoy the coco on boat. it's time to go back. we are tired, sit while enjoy the sunset wind. there's no sunset :(

7.30p.m ++

wait the queue shower time. playing cards. i teach them how to play speed and seven spade. dinner's arrive. the menu is tasty. 'sayur asem'. 'ikan bandeng bakar'. 'ayam pedas'. why there's spicy food :():

around 9 or 10 p.m

they fall asleep. whattt. it's still early. i don't feel any sleepy yet. this moment we should chit chat about anything. catching up the missing years. or what i called the deep conversation. yeeahhh, but what can i do, our body is not strong as it used to be. maybe they don't get used to be one full day activity. thankfully, i am healthy, not feeling any fever at all. i was afraid, because suddenly last night i got high fever. maybe it's because i used to be to do a whole day outside activity by join college excursion on isolated area. while waiting my body feel asleep, i chit chat with fel. thankfully i could sleep not so long after that.

another day 6.30a.m

whoaaa they got up early. also my body. is it because my daily routine that makes me have to wake up at 7a.m. the schedule for today is not clear enough. dh said we can do anything what we like. but by giving that option to someone like us is really wasting time. we are whatever person. instead nothing to do, i make them get move move.

8.00a.m -- meet 'penyu'

 we're walking to some place that breeding turtles (i think the english word is wrong, what i mean is 'penyu'). kind of a long walking.

9a.m -- jump into sea

what i want is beach with clean sand. but the guide said the spot is full of people. hmmm... the spot that he means is the spot that just we walk through. i see no full people. hmmm... maybe there's a mangrove near that spot that we can't go near. now i see that this pramuka island really have small sand beach. the plus of this island is when you jump on the water even on the edge you can see clear water with many little fish swim in it. then the next thing is we jump on the water again. our foot got bite by some fish. the feeling of screaming 'a aw aaa aaww a aw' is funny though. the more i see what's inside the water the more i know and afraid that many fish around my foot.

10.am-11a.m -- journey back home

time to shower. psss this morning before we meet 'penyu' none of us take a bath. because we know we will get wet again. packing and prepare in hurry cause we afraid that we don't get the best spot on the boat. the truth is we don't want to sit outside again. because it's already sunny, our skin could be tanner. and the sun after 10 a.m is not healthy. me and ti walk firstly in hurry to catch up to get the best spot. as we saw many groups walk towards the same direction as us. the closer i get, my brain thinking, which boat should we take? we don't know. we're just followers. this is so useless to walk forward but having no information about what to do. feels like we don't have any brain huh. thankfully, the guide lead me and ti to the right boat. he was thinking the same way as i am. he afraid if i don't know which boat should we get on. between up and down, we prefer down. because in down the sun shines indirectly. and we can still feel the wind blowing too. yaiyyy we got the good spot.

2.30p.m -- lunchy

touchdown jakarta. we're got picked up by my big bro. next destination is food. i imagine we'll eat around pluit or pik, because it's near to airport. but a little references we have. plus asking my big bro, the answer is always ducking. between 'bebek yogi' or 'bebek slamet' we chose the second. it's perfect food for our hungry tummy.

5.30p.m -- see ya tik! 

time is up. tik has go back to semarang. while there's time to wait for her flight, we decide to get ice cream at a&w's. the ice easy to melt.

7p.m -- i'm hooome

job intersection

soon, i will resign from this company. i know soon. but the exact time is dunno. i exactly remember, last year, while doing lafayette project and the other 'right now' project, i wanna resign badly. but by the time goes by, in november and december works seem not really much. i remember the only thing that keeps me alive at that hectic moment was mom words,

"just keep going, keep going. then you won't realize that it's already the end of month and you get the price."

keep those in my mind with another thought to do the best i can while waiting time goes by, and look what i get now, the stop moment. i thought maybe this moment only last for a week. no, it's last for 3 months. feel so much blessed. hope it last for a long time, at least until the moslem holy day.

i know i'm gonna resign, while waiting for those moment i should find the replacement. i only search on jobstreet, if i see the big / famous company or the job is interesting or the salary seems fit in, then i submit. i don't really expect from this jobstreet, because none of the application that i submit have not response my application.

but, after a few weeks or months, i got called. they want me to send my cv and current portfolio. what i was thinking, i don't have any updated working portfolio. it needs time (actually i need to spare my time) to updated. then after a week the called, i send it. i was hope that i got next call. but almost 2 months i don't get the called. it's from ikea (furniture company).

then out of nowhere, i got another call from tempo. this time i feel blessed because i'm not submit to them. they want me to send cv and portfolio by the latest last monday. i send on tuesday, not so much to expect it. voila, i got call again, they say want to interview this thursday. they want me to bring laprop, i can feel suspicious thing. thanks god, i don't have macbook no more.

after juggling with my mind, either i go or no.
i decide to come. i thought we'll talk about the job, but it's totally wrong. 4 hours they tested me to design. thanks god i can still remember a few things about skech up. although not complete, but i'm happy with the result. based on the fact that i don't touch that thing since 1.5 years ago.

i just hope for the best. should i move or not in the next 1 or 2 months.

funny, how it's hard for me to let go my current job. is it because i'm enjoy in this stop moment?

if... i don't have any friends

this thought just happen by the effect that i'm not really like to be interact with other, especially when they let me down. why they do that to me? and strangely why i was easily to absorb it to my mind.

the routine, how my friends and i always do the same thing together, such as go home after school. they can't and i have to be alone.

maybe the starting point is when i was senior high. not got so much in touch with others, makes me have to do all the things by myself. and so far I CAN DO IT. and get used to be one.

if i can be one, why should i have many?

this is maybe the reason why people individualist. i dunno why, maybe it's because the trusting problem or many people can change easily and suddenly. one day they are hot, the next day they're cold.

if... i don't have any friends, can i live?
based on my kost experience (living away from my home and family), so far i can make it. i can buy food from other, laundry by other, cleaning by myself, transport i can browse it.

i can live like-robotic or freely. do what i want.

watch korean drama titled 'flower boy next door'. it shows how the girl can live alone.

so far, i learn myself that i am prefer to watching or as i called it observe other than do talking. it doesn't mean that i don't like socializing. still love it, but should be the right person with the same interest with me, we can click.

late night duty

to mend my guilty feeling while they work and i just watch --> i pray hoping there's no error in what they do, or if it's any error please make us find the solution.

thanks god i have an excuse to shoot shoot and click click.
i think the words has spread about my whereabouts.
first they wanna longchamp then another person wants counters.

it's ruined again

my plan cancel again, either because of my laziness to get out of the house with public transportation (again) or because i cancel their plan to trip to bogor.

also my mood is ruined. i accidentally too hot ironing my first culottes which is almost done.

i'm mobile

Just installed blog application for my mobile phone. Whoaaa... i think i'm gonna write often. Let's hope.

Hmmm being a new person.
For me, i'm not good to get in touch with new people. Especially if the other person is shy, not talker person. It's hard to get to know them. Like what conversation should i start with. Sometimes i think i have problem with words. It's hard to connect the words that i'm trying to say.

i like to interview people. Getting to know what's their opinion. But in everyday way, it's gonna be awkward. They would think who am i. Asking so many question.

Sometimes i used this trick to start with new people. Always borrowing something to the other. In that way u're gonna start to get in touch with other. See if i have everything, it means i'm independent, individual, no need interaction with others.

If u have a question don't hesitate to ask. But please do not ask too many silly little thing. They're gonna think you're stupid or annoying person.

For me, at least i need 6 months to get along with new people. To memorize their name.

Sometimes when i feel not in their circle community. i want to run away. i feel like i'm not belong to them. i feel like they don't care. Fine, i don't care about it. So i make my own world with my own thought. But please let me get out of that circle. Let me into free community. Which i'm prefered.

my life as a project designer

Huaaa alot to share a little time i have. Shortly, this is my first own project that i handle by myself. Yaaahh of course i'm not literally alone, there's cici and the other people.

I start to feel the story, the intrict, the drama, the problem, and so on.

By Saturday just got a news that the ceramic tile that I deliver from here is not enough. Even I already spare to broken things. And today that problem just solved.

The problem of ceramic tile has just been done, another thing happen. The rolling door just start producing. I thought he already start producing. I estimate by the end of this week he can install. Too bad, he needs 2 weeks produce and time to deliver. What the aaaaa,,, i thought he produces it near site. It's out of island.

The rolling door not yet done, then something come up. The box panel for electricity. I dunno why they installed in sales area, not in storage. Grrrgrrr,,, thanks God the guy is cooperative. Hope the client understand.

Please be good to me and us.*fingercrossed

faking ourselves

"harus loh keluar zona nyaman buat ngedapetin sesuatu" -- dewi 

is it mean we have to become someone else? it's fake. i think and think again, it should be the real you has to come up. no matter how cruel society, the real you must come up. don't pretend to be someone else which you don't enjoy it. because i believe every human is unique, they deserve to be different. they deserve to be free.

but what's the meaning of that zone?
if it's something into bad and not really fit into our character. then, the answer is above. we deserve to be who i am. if the outside can't fit in ours. we can make our own worlds. why do we have to change if we are already have a good character?

if it's into something good. i think we should try to change into the good. the changes in it means to level up our character. to be a better us.

at last, it based on good or bad. i think adult people can define the good from the bad.

the problem is, why do we have to change if the character that we live now are okay?
at that point, that person has reached their comfort zone. at that zone, nothing will change. you will stay the same at that moment. stability.

time eventually come into your brain. either because of you are bored or tired. you want to leave. you want something to change.

the choice is up to you. you want to be better or stay the same. or you want to play hard, got goodness much and also loose to badness much.

good luck on your life choice!